Sunday, May 11, 2008

Everything In Life Is an Omen !!!!

Words like 'KshaMA', 'MAafi', 'ParMAtma', 'MAlik' and many more beautiful words like these carry a magnificiently common 'word' which remains un-noticed, The Beauty Lies In The Word - "MA" .
Alchemist, does the name says it all? No, It doesn't. It is a book written by Paulo Coelho published in more than forty languages. Okay ! If you are thinking that am going out of track then no, am not because there will be no deep-rooted discussions about this book. Still. Though the book is all about 'Maktub - everything is written' , 'following the dream' , 'knowing what you want' etcetra but it has taught me the significance to learn and realise the 'Omens' that life carry for each of us.
So the story actually starts now:
I had an arguement-without-battle stuff with my Mom the other day. Agh !! The usual kahani ghar ghar ki wala jazz and to my astonishment this time it gave a new turn just after the climax. Actually I was annoyed on something that my Mom wanted me to do ( or not to do, frankly i dont remember the reason of the arguement because I hardly take things to heart, ;) how fake ) "Mumma Pleeeezzzz", I squeezed my tongue in irritation asking to excuse. She left the room with no words as she always does while I started hogging the newspapers, very sure about overtaking Mom's mood whenever I want, by talking on the topics of her interest after a while.
Suddenly......................yes....................I felt exactly like this......................speechless, blank. Something moved me till the within, my heart felt like a mayhem in all its veins and then there was an abyss silent for a long time, I was choked. What it was that made me feel so disconsolate?? A story. The newspapers were flinging with a number of articles on 'Mother's Day' when my eyes got stuck to this story which revealed all the recurring thoughts that I have had been thinking about while being 'with' or 'away' from Mom.
'The Diary of a Mother' was the name, the hugeness of it made me feel so small that I decided to remain silent, don't know for how many hours !!
It revealed the unshown, unreadable, unexpected expectations & desires of a Mother when her children grow young like me, where I am busy with all my days work till the sixth day of a week and unfortunately the seventh day is meant/booked for friends to hang out injudiciously. The willingness of Mother's heart to have an empty corner with her daughter having a word or two, hardly matters.....why so?? I thought. Because either I filled her in/with materialistic world or I overheard what she has spoken silently. Though unintentionally but abruptly ignoring her desires and expectations, today, has rinsed me till the last cell of my body.
I was so full of guilt to realise my mistake that how could I forget her in her presence, the one who stood with me from thick to thin, from gloom to bloom?
That Was An Omen !! I realised, the story said so much about a Mother's fantacies about her child, how she dreams, cares, worries, carries her child till her last breath and the child TRIES to give everything thats possible but the valuable time,................... she dithers to ask for it from her own....
Forty Two minutes from now, the clock struck b-bye to 'Mother's Day' and the first thing I did after awaking ( from the SLEEP) was, touched THY feet of my 'Ma' and wished her congratulations for being the Best Mother.
This way 'Alchemist' taught me to realise the Omen that indicates to upgrade or correct yourself where the story in the paper suddenly boiled up before me to warn.......wake up before its too late because the Diary of a Mother was written when.................... she was struggling for-a-breath of life but it was read by her son on the thirteenth day after her bereavement.
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I tried my hard to express what I felt but truly, I felt much more than this.

11 comments:

Devesh said...

Touching.....I know its very difficult to explain the importance of 'Ma' in words......rarely a person shows his gratitude to her....we should keep on reminding ourself 'value' of Mom in life....fortunate we people are, of being blessed with Mothers-love...

Happy Mothers day !!

Keep Writing.....

Kuldeep Laheru said...

Good going, Rashmi.
Marion C. Garretty had said," Mother love is the fuel that enables a normal human being to do the impossible." and Omar Burleson had quoted," A mother is a blend of strength and survivorship, experience and insight, fancy and reflection.Take the word 'family'. Strike out the 'm' for mother and the "y" for youth - and all you have left is 'fail'."
For me my Mom is everything of my life. I can't imagine myself without her. And what I am today it is only because of my Mom. I love my Mom.
Rashmi, you have written some unique words on Mother.
Keep writing. All the best.

golu said...

what to say?u are actually so good as a writer.nice co-relation of thoughts good..happy writing keep ur spirit high sky is the limit...good luck...

Me Thinks.. said...

Beautifully written..your writing says so much about you..stuff that I know and so much that I dont..

Awesomely written..keep writing..I love the connotation of the Alchemist here..

Rajneesh said...

जो कुछ भी लिखा गया है या लिखा जा रहा है, वो पढ़ने वाले को जैसे ही रूककर दो पल सोचने को मजबूर करता है, लेखक अपने पाठक के मस्तक के साथ उसके दिल को भी छू लेता है और अक्षरों को मायने मिल जाते हैं. तुमने माँ के बारे में जो कुछ लिखा वो दिल को छू गया. हमेशा यूँ ही अच्छा और सार्थक लिखती रहो....
अमृता जी की कुछ लाईनें तुम्हारे लिए...जो उन्होने सारे लेखकों के लिए लिखीं -

जिन्होंने भी हाथ में कलम ली है
और उस कलम की आंख में भर आये आंसुओं को देखा है
और फिर हर आंसू को अक्षर बना दिया है
उन हाथों का दर्द, उन हाथों का हासिल
अदब की तारीख बनता है.

nothin.. within said...

Best from ur keybord till know superbly written tussi to chaa gaye heroine :) keep surprising people by writing post like this!

The Wandering Minstrel said...

i must tell u sumthin dat i must have told u way back in bangalore when u were just a few feet above my bed :) I am very very proud of you haddi :)

mystupendoussalvation said...

Seriously...Today I got the real meaning of Omens.I read alchemist but never give a thought, as how these omens work, was actually in a impression of doubting the Paulo style.. but I guess we dont have to search for them, they are around everytime. and MAA - today this word is sounding more resonant and more beautiful. That day when I told her about Him, I realised now, how hard it was for her to take it. however, she manages to do so. everyones' mom is the best in the world n mine too. I am bizzarred. this outlandish dame is mesmerised by YOUR presence and ur writing. Love u

ankita said...

a wonderful article really touches the chords......
there is nhthng & no 1 who can mesure mothers luv..its phenomenal,unconditional..really
talkin about the signs....i do belive we get a lot of signs in & around us abt life..

wonderful thought & article....

akanksha said...

Really very much touchy.And correlation with alchemist is best.I have read alchemist & omens do exists.Believe it or not.Great job Rashmi.

Anonymous said...

thank you